First Impression? Try Again.

Lately i've been getting told alot, "Wow, you know you're really smart Tawnya." 

ummmm.......WTF?

This isn't the first time i've sat shanking my head and thinking to myself, "Oh Tawn, what first impressions are you possibly giving to people that cause them to be dumbfounded by your intelligence?..."

As shocked i am to receive such a compliment, i take it with stride and run with it.

I grew up being extremely shy so it's fair to say i have observed many people in my life and have become very good at reading people. I can see ones insecurities, their lies, their worries, their happiness..exc. Facial expressions are abundant in people and its incredible how when paying close attention, you begin to notice how often people speak greatly with their eyes and how much more meaningful their words become. I feel that my years of being a listener have really blessed me to get to know the inner depth of people and in turn, it's allowed me to become more accepting and relateable to them. My love for people is astronomical and everyday becomes such a greater joy because i never know who's going to walk into my life and change, teach or advise me on something new and it's definitely become one of my finest reasons to wake up in the morning.

As for me, my first impression may not be the most graceful, wise or flat out honest interpretation of who i am but I appreciate those who go beyond their first thoughts and get to know me.  :)

Forgive me, for my childhood was silent which leaves me saturated in awkwardness and incompetence.

Tribute to A-Money

On friday my best friend is getting married so i decided to write an open blog about it and save myself the public humiliation of giving a speech that was not even asked of me, and crying due to my flask of emotion that'll be tucked in my left boob. (or lack of boob.)

To the best friend whom i speak of, Allee McGee.

8+ years ago i met Allee in a worthless highschool class known as aquaculture, a few months later our friendship would solidify in a Wendy's parking lot when we shared secrets, fun facts about ourselves and a Wendy's pack of chicken nuggets with ranch. Without knowing it, this fancy dinner date would lead to more dinner dates, new friends, more secrets, and some of the most silly/crazy/stupid nights that could be created in Utah County. Some of these nights consisted of crying, hiding from cops, holding championship titles in beer pong *KOBE* and mostly laughing and dancing.

To where time has gone, i dunno. I suppose that's why they say time flies when you're having fun. Allee has done more for me than just be a friend but has literally gone above and beyond to make sure that everytime we're together, i'm happy. With her witty sarcasm, random gifts of kindness, and constant ear for listening I can say she really is one of the most kind hearted and loving people i know. Because of this, my sarcastic wit flows more steadily and I forever have a pair of matching t-shirts as a reminder of where our friendship has been.

To help people who don't know Allee understand the type of person she is, i suppose the best way to describe her is by saying that she is the light that attracts everyone in the room. The hive that us bees huddle to. I've never been to a party where she wasn't noticed. I don't say that because shes really pretty either.. guys either thought she was super hot, silly and immediately a sweet addiction (because lets face it, her sarcasm is unbeatable.. same with her beauty..) and girls either loved her or hated her. haha haters..smh.
In addition, she is the only girl i've EVER known to try and pay for her food on a first date haha.

***MS. INDEPENDENT***

Dear A-Money,

I'm so grateful to call you my best friend and be apart of your wedding. In the past 8 years i've watched your heart break and seen people take advantage of your hospitality. If karma hasn't hit them yet, I hope they get stuck wearing adult braces and eating shit for breakfast, lunch and dinner... and THEN wasting hours of their life picking that shit out of their braces. :)
Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on, partner in crime and beer pong partner. Otto is so lucky to have you and i'm so happy you could find a guy who reciprocates the same unconditional love you share.
Besties for life, i love you so much!!

Sincerly Yours,

T-Dub