Suicide Epiphany

    S U I C I D E   E P I P H A N Y

Empty, Lonely, Feeling Absent.

Worthless, Weary, Life lived Past Tense.

Stupid, Lazy, Sad and Cursed.

I Drown in Doubt and Dream of Thirst.

I Turn the page, and see it blank

Living in fear, My stomach has sank.

Look out at the world, see color turn gray,
Forget about time, months, years disarray.
Crawl up on a chair, put head in the noose,
Play my life like a game, play my life, duck duck goose.
  It's my time, I've been chosen,
Kicked the chair, time stop frozen,
Hanging there, i see their face,
Family friends their warm embrace.
Selfish me, i can now see,
Struggle, wiggle, cannot breathe,
Blood gone thin, i now see black,

Going forward, can't turn back.

In the grave covered in tears,

Think of the prayer i said it for years

Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep,
If I shall die before I wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take.

To my surprise there was no light,

It seems that heavens, out of sight,

I kick and scream i'm being pulled,

It seems my life has just been sold.

Dark angels circle, like crows above,

I've forgotten that word, starts with L, rhymes with of?

I am miserable wishing this life brought me death,

My suicide lurking, I took my own breath

This is my new life, I made it myself,

Why couldn't have i, just asked for some help.

Regretting the life i now wish i lived,

At least it could change whereas now its relived.

 I am nothing.
Empty, lonely. feeling absent

Worthless, Weary, Life lived past tense

Stupid Lazy sad and cursed

I drown in Doubt and Dream of Thirst.