Skinny Mini's and Me.

Aside from actual people, there are maybe 3 things that i desperately love!

F O O D
F A S H I O N

&

P U P P I E S

However i have a problem and that is that fashion is a Skinny Bitch and food is a Fat Amy!

I find a ton of inspiration from fashion, the pictures, the design, and mostly the clothes. These things get my mind going and from what i take from them, i can scurry through my own creative mind and come up with something that says, look at me now....

One of the girls/models i love following on Instagram is @charcoalalley because her indie/gypsy/bohemian chic style is to die for!

For instance, if Johnny Depp made a baby with Blake Lively in a pool of turquoise under a rainbow with a unicorn near by, it would be her.

The only problem is that if a girl like me puts on a few pounds, all of a sudden that "inspiration" i used to have, is history! Then I have to realize that this mystical creature of a girl above, is a crazy unique beauty and she's probably just one the most photogenic babes in all the entire world. I can assure you, i'm not the only pair of eyes who envy's her.

So what's the big deal? Well i'll tell you...

I  L O V E  F O O D !

Unfortunately, food and fashion are two conflicting ninjas and the funny thing is that i would rather spend $150 on an epic seafood dinner with a couple of Oyster Shooters, before i could ever convince myself that buying a pair of shoes for $150, was worth it. haha. 

This is a huge struggle for me because what do i do? Spend money on a gym pass and clothes that will go out of fashion in 3 months? or spend it on having a one night stand with a delectable piece of heaven named Peppered Ribeye topped with sauteed mushrooms, chives and who brings along a side of asparagus decorated with lemon and heck, maybe the $20 baked potato of my dreams.

Do i eat much? Maybe.

So this year on a certain day i looked in the mirror and thought to myself, "Oh Tawnya...you have really done it now.." So I sadly got on the scale and realized i had gained a wopping 20 pounds!! Whaaaa?
Some people would say, So what?? Umm so what? more like, "So where did that come from??"

So i vowed enough is enough and i started to slowly but surely begin to kick my own ass. I've had a ton of experience learning that the feeling of hitting rock bottom, is the perfect motivation to not only climb out of the hole you're in, but fill it as well.
So that's what i've been doing and here is my progress thus far..

Before            and....        After
  Weight: 136                     Weight: 123
Total Loss: 13 Lbs
Goal Weight: Whatever makes me feel like a boss.

Below, is a dress which doesn't seem like much but it is SKIN TIGHT. It's meant to show off all them good curves us ladies lust for in addition, all the bad ones as well. I know i'm not the only girl who buys certain clothing items that don't fit as positive motivation. So this dress i'm working towards, is all in hopes of having the opportunity to freeze my ass off in sometime this month.

 Wish me Luck!

Motivation comes in all different ways and even when you want to do something good for yourself, it can still take time for that motivation to kick in full speed. But have some patience and if you feel distressed, just remember, we've all been there.